When I'm scrolling through my FB memories and I see something pop up about having to go workout, or starting a new diet, or trying to eat healthier, I get angry. I've been fighting my weight since my early 30s. I know there are people who have been fighting their weight their entire lives, and I'm thankful I'm not one of them. But I still get angry at how pervasive diet culture is.
Jay and I went to an indoor garage sale last week, and we found these pamphlets from the late 1950s. No wonder so many people have disordered eating, this bullshit has been ingrained in our society for 75 years!
I finally was able to lose about 45# with noom, but between Mom and Bill's accident and fucking menopause, I gained 35# back. I learned a ton from noom, and believe that I've broken the diet culture mentality for myself. I no longer restrict myself, I eat what I want in moderation, I've lost my all-or-nothing thinking, and thought distortions are a thing of the past. Yes, I continued to count calories in my noom app, and was averaging between 1,300-1,400 a day. So how the hell did I gain back so much weight? My body betrayed me, that's how. I felt like crap, and couldn't even play circus without extreme frustration.
I finally broke down and begged my doctor to start me on a GLP-1. I was on it six months before my insurance ran out, and lost 18#. I had some side effects, that's for sure. Pooping? Nah, fam, my colon will just hold onto that forever now. No appetite? Easy to lose weight when the thought of food makes you nauseated. Accidentally eat too much? Kill me now. I learned to work with it, and was fairly successful, losing half of what I'd gained back.
I'd heard about microdosing GLP-1s here and there, and when talking to a friend, she mentioned that she's still on noom and that they offer GLP-1s. Back to noom I went, and began microdosing. The weight loss is much, much slower, but the educational component of noom is what I love. Unlike what happens with a lot of people who are just prescribed a GLP-1 for weight loss and accept that they'll have to live with the side effects (like I did), the daily lessons help solidify the changes I've already made. I anticipate being able to transition off of the meds in the next few months. Time will tell whether or not my body will continue to betray me, but I'm hopeful.
And, I feel pretty damn good that I've stepped away from all of the diet culture negativity: restriction, all-or-nothing thinking, etc. I'm taking the meds to lose the weight, because I was feeling like crap and unable to live the way I wanted to, once I gained the weight back.
How I feel inside is beginning to align with how I look outside, and that's been my big picture since I started noom in 2020.
Also, this is not an advertisement. It's just my experience.
